New moon in Leo, august 2019
Blessed Be for the New Moon in Leo! I know the cowardly lion isn’t usually the lion that we talk about during Leo season, but I’d like to talk about fear for a minute. Not the major fears that you hold and are deeply aware of- I’m not talking about fear of heights or spiders, or my personal phobia: fear of sandpaper (don’t use that against me). I’m talking about the subtler fears that we may have unconsciously internalized, possibly as children, possibly as a response to our very own parents and teachers. Maybe it’s a fear of not being able to receive love in the way we so deeply need to be loved. Maybe there’s a fear of indecision, or making the wrong decision (on your part or on someone else’s part). Maybe there’s a fear of failure or a fear of being misunderstood.... For me personally, I’m working on a fear of not being good enough and thus, not being loved. It’s not really something I’ve ever thought about until recently, but when I look back at my childhood, at the inhumane requirements of a training ballerina, the perfectionism needed to be free of sin at church, and the demand of straight A’s put on me by my parents (and the time I was punished for having a 92% on my report card because it wasn’t a high enough A.) I start to understand why I work myself so hard all of the time. If we can recognize these subtler fears that we have been holding onto for years and years, forgive ourselves for our lack of trust, let go of these fears (and any sort of dis-ease or disease that might be manifesting physically as a result of this fear), we could open up so much more of our energy into something positive. Ultimately, new moons aren’t about letting go. They’re about bringing in. What parts of your beautiful self could come out in a stronger, more bold and powerful way, if were not holding on to the limiting fears of our subconscious? What part of you needs to shine on this new moon? And it doesn’t have to be a bad ass super star part of you either. For me, it’s the part of myself that allows my body and mind to take a break from working and enjoys things just as they are. What’s yours?